Well, apparently my sense of irony supersedes my tendency to procrastinate.
Procrastinating is a difficult trait for me to get a handle on. I have a very busy lifestyle but I still feel as if there are important things I should be doing. As Perry and Hamming mention, prioritizing is a type of procrastinating. I have short term goals, long term goals, and an infinite number of tasks that must be accomplished in order for those goals to be realized. Not to mention all those mundane, trivial chores that take up so much time but are unavoidable.
But I must admit that I spent more time than necessary on non-productive, leisure activities. My greatest accomplishment lately has been finding creative outlets that are as enjoyable as my passive, vegetative hobbies were, if not more so.
One of the dreams I put off for most of my life was of becoming a writer. When I sat down with a book, usually fiction with little depth, I would rationalize it as ‘research.’ And those rare times when I did attempt to write, motivation escaped me and the novels beckoned, like Sirens, giving voice to my insecurities: ‘You don’t have the talent to be a writer. You don’t have the patience. You lack the skills, experience, and knowledge it takes to communicate your ideas effectively in an entertaining manner. Relax. No one is asking you to be the next great American author. You can afford to sit down and lose yourself in a world someone else created. It’s not like you don’t have more serious responsibilities to worry about.’ And so I shelved my dreams again.
Until one day I took a nervous dip into an online community. After lurking for a few weeks and discovering that I had much in common with the individuals on a particular site, I made my first post. I was immediately welcomed with positive comments. And thus began my foray into the forums. I took advantage of the anonymity of the internet to express the thoughts and feelings I could not articulate in spontaneous real world conversations.
Over the last several months, I have felt my prowess with the written word grow and I can only hope that others find it as entertaining to read my thoughts as I do writing them.
If you are reading this anywhere near the time it was posted, you’ve most likely come from the site I speak of and I want to welcome you as warmly as I was welcomed, even if you joined after I did. Or especially if you joined after I did. I will attempt to entertain you and pique your interest by filtering the content I gather into this blog and its companion webcomic (which I promise will be coming soon).
That’s enough soul baring for one day, I think. Hope to see you again, soon.
